Bah Humbug

Smacked right into that wall yesterday. 


You know the one you hit when you have been going too hard for too long? 


Yup. 


The dreaded "over commitment crash." 


Reaching the end of the rope. 


Rejecting, to my own detriment, the balance of work and rest that brings blessings.


And now, I'm cranky and irritable, short fused and crabby.


It's not pretty.


So I am confessing my sins to you. :)


The solution? 


Praise and Thanksgiving!


It's not always possible to take things off "The List." But, when no items can be deleted, and we have to simply continue on, we can still choose Joy. 


I haven't. 


I have, instead, focused on "The List," the little niggling irritations of the kids, another pile of math papers to grade, the repetitive, unnecessary noises, the volume level of so many voices in the house all day, another mess in the kitchen. 


Translation: I'm choosing to focus on what I don't like, instead of choosing to focus on His Face! Just typing that made me relax. He is so Lovely. I am so blessed to belong to Him. Nothing else really matters. It's just so much white noise trying to drown out the Truth and trying to get me to focus on my "rights" instead of my "responsibilities." I can talk myself into believing that I have a right to a clean, orderly house all day, perfectly behaved children, math pages with never an error, Christmas presents already taken care of. And I would be wrong. Instead, I have a responsibility to reflect my Savior in all my thoughts, words, and actions, whether tired or not, whether the stack of papers to be graded is too tall to see over or not, whether my husband needs to add something to my list or not. 


Time to refocus. 


Time to take my eyes off what I want. Time to focus on what He wants.


I can always choose Him.