Showing posts with label gratitude. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gratitude. Show all posts

Friday, February 3, 2012

Our Friendly Septic Tank Man: A Link-Up in "Pages in Our Heritage of Faith"



We really "moved up" in the world a few years ago when our neighborhood received city water. Prior to that, we had lived for years with well water. And our well water is so hard, it comes out in the shape of little bricks. So there was much to celebrate when we received a city tap for water. But that was the only hook-up they installed. We are still on a septic system. 


For those of you who don't know what that is, be thankful.


Anyway, because our home was built for a smaller family than ours, our septic system is under constant strain. Which means, we have to kind of "baby" it. We have used the same company to take care of it for years. I don't trust anybody else. Our septic tank man has kept us from having any serious trouble and so I do whatever he tells me to do. If he says, "Double up on the bacteria treatment." I double up on the bacteria treatment. If he says, "Use Angel Soft tissue paper." I won't buy any other kind. If he says, "Do not use bleach or any other harsh cleaners, and do NOT use anything antibacterial." Then you better believe I follow his advice religiously.


At least once a year, he comes to clean everything out. We all stay inside. I try not to think about what they are doing with that giant stainless steel truck in my back yard.


When he's finished, he comes in so I can write him a check and so he can hand me the boxes of bacteria for the upcoming year. Of course, we are usually having school when he comes. During his last visit, he was in quite a talkative mood. He sat down at the school table and began to tell me how blessed our children are to grow up in our home. 


He went on to explain his childhood and how he hadn't been raised in a wholesome family. And because of that, his life was really "off track" for many years. We talked about the Lord and politics and homeschooling and his family. It made me cry. 


We sometimes forget, I think, just how blessed we are. Seeing our home and family through his eyes broke my heart. The heart hunger that had left its scars in his soul were still evident. But instead of being bitter, he was choosing hope. He was choosing to try to live his life better than he had been raised to live it. 


Those days when this job seems never-ending, it can be easy to lose sight of the blessedness of it all. Even though it's hard and long and steep and heavy, his words reminded me of why we have made the choices we've made. Being in our home for those few minutes, he saw the fruit that we can sometimes take for granted.


The Lord renewed my vision, and my heart, through the annual visit of my friendly septic tank man. And I was so blessed!


How has He reminded you of His Faithfulness this week? What has happened this last month that made you say, "Thank You, Lord!" Have you seen growth in your spirit? In the spirit of your child? Has someone told you how you have blessed them? All of it points us back to our Abba Father and what He is doing in our hearts, in our lives, in our homes. Will you tell us about it here? We LOVE to read about what He is doing in and through you! Grab the button, add it to your post, (or not) and link up a page in your heritage of faith. Add another chapter to the book He is dictating by His Faithfulness every moment of every day as we walk this earth.



Friday, January 6, 2012

The Ache of a Heart Longing for Home

The more deeply I fall in love with Jesus, the more I long to forever dwell in His Presence. In worship, the ache is often physical. (This one's for YOU, Kirsten! :)  It's not that I'm unhappy here. I'm so very blessed and our life is incredibly rich and fascinating. 


But this is not Home.


And that Truth is becoming more and more real in my soul and my spirit. 


There are so many songs of praise that speak to this "other worldliness" that He created into the fiber of our beings, but one that always "gets me" is this one:

 
There is nothing like standing, surrounded by my family on a Sunday morning, singing this song together. I think I want it sung when He calls me Home.


Another one that makes me weep every single time I hear it is this one:



"If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world."          C. S. Lewis

He wants us to understand the Truth of our situation. He wants us to know that there is more, that we were created for more. There is such strength to be found in recognizing our Citizenship. It frees us from things that could otherwise distract or dilute our mission and message while we walk this Earth. It causes us to discern circumstances correctly. It teaches us "to number out days aright so that we may gain a heart of Wisdom."


And, even though the ache is fierce, it is the most Loving way for Him to allow me to feel. Walking through these years with a heart that is so very tender to His Touch is the desire of my heart. I don't want there to be any hard spots in my spirit, my soul. I want to allow Him to turn my heart of stone into a heart of flesh that quickens to His smallest Whisper. 


It's the opposite of the message that so much of our culture thinks of as truth: that we should be independent, pull ourselves up by our own bootstraps, be dependent on nothing and no one. It is thought that freedom is the absence of need.


True Freedom is being completely and totally dependent, knowing that every need is met only in Him.


As I learn more about the true nature of my need, I give Him thanks. 




You're up! Join the link up and testify to His Faithfulness in your life. We can't wait to read what He has done for you! I love it when you give Him Glory for His Faithful Provision, Protection, Wisdom. Whatever it is, as long as it brings Him Glory for His Faithfulness to you or your family, it's "fair game" for this link up. 




Thursday, December 15, 2011

Bah Humbug



Smacked right into that wall yesterday. 


You know the one you hit when you have been going too hard for too long? 


Yup. 


The dreaded "over commitment crash." 


Reaching the end of the rope. 


Rejecting, to my own detriment, the balance of work and rest that brings blessings.


And now, I'm cranky and irritable, short fused and crabby.


It's not pretty.


So I am confessing my sins to you. :)


The solution? 


Praise and Thanksgiving!


It's not always possible to take things off "The List." But, when no items can be deleted, and we have to simply continue on, we can still choose Joy. 


I haven't. 


I have, instead, focused on "The List," the little niggling irritations of the kids, another pile of math papers to grade, the repetitive, unnecessary noises, the volume level of so many voices in the house all day, another mess in the kitchen. 


Translation: I'm choosing to focus on what I don't like, instead of choosing to focus on His Face! Just typing that made me relax. He is so Lovely. I am so blessed to belong to Him. Nothing else really matters. It's just so much white noise trying to drown out the Truth and trying to get me to focus on my "rights" instead of my "responsibilities." I can talk myself into believing that I have a right to a clean, orderly house all day, perfectly behaved children, math pages with never an error, Christmas presents already taken care of. And I would be wrong. Instead, I have a responsibility to reflect my Savior in all my thoughts, words, and actions, whether tired or not, whether the stack of papers to be graded is too tall to see over or not, whether my husband needs to add something to my list or not. 


Time to refocus. 


Time to take my eyes off what I want. Time to focus on what He wants.


I can always choose Him. 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Blessings For Each of You



May these days of yours be filled with Love, Joy, and Peace.


May your home be filled with His Glory.


May all of your loved ones have safe travel.


May you receive His anointing of fun on your time together with family and friends.


May gratitude be the "native tongue."


May there be Rest for your spirit, even in the midst of "Busy."


May each day bring a quickening in you that we are one day Closer to Him, to His Returning, to our true Home.


May you be used by Him to Love.



Friday, November 11, 2011

My First Son-In-Law: A Link-Up in "Pages in Our Heritage of Faith"

Hannah, our oldest daughter, turned 24 in September. Before she was born, we began praying about her husband. We asked the Lord to prepare a godly man who would honor Him all the days of his life. A man who would love her as Christ loves the Church and who would pour out his life for her and wash her with the Word.


The Lord answered that prayer in such a mighty way in giving us Jeremiah. He loves the Lord and seeks to glorify Him with everything he does. He loves Hannah with all his heart and blesses her by providing spiritual leadership and covering over her, their home, and their son. 


It is such an exciting thing to watch him learn to be a father. He asks big questions. He wants to learn wisdom. He wants to be intentional. He longs to bless his son with a godly home and heritage. 


Hannah has blossomed in his great love. Watching them together is like seeing a fairy tale come to life. But it's not a fairy tale. This is real. They are allowing the Lord to direct every aspect of their lives. They spend time in the Word and in study. They spend time in worship and in dreaming. They pray. 


And we give thanks. For what He has done to bless our family in such a precious way. 


He will be very embarrassed when he finds out I posted this. :)



It's time for another link up in the continuing "Pages in Our Heritage of Faith." This is when you get to jump in and testify to His Faithfulness in your life!!!! Tell us your story. Old or new, earth shattering or heart changing, it's all a testimony to His direct and faithful involvement in our lives. It strengthens our faith when we focus on what He has done. We need to be taking notes. We need to be paying close attention. Our families need strong heritages of faith to withstand the war waged against them by the enemy of our souls. Our children will be blessed by our faithfulness in recording these stories. 


If you've never linked up before, it's easy. In the right sidebar, there is the "button" you see above. Underneath is a white box that contains the "code" to add the button to your post, so that others can join us here. Click inside the box, then hit "control" and "a" together--that will "select" the entire contents of the box. Going back to the post you are going to link, click on the "Edit HTML" tab. There will be a bunch of gibberish that tells your post to look like it does. Scroll down to the very bottom of all of that code and click in a spot after the last character or even on the next completely blank line. When you are there, right click and select "paste." Go back up to the "compose" tab and click on it--it will return you to the normal view of your post and if you scroll down to the bottom, the button should appear there. Buttons sometimes don't automatically go to the center, like they should. If that happens, click on the button and a little menu will pop up. Click on "right" and then "center" and it should move right where it's supposed to be. Once you have your post all ready and published, click on the "Linky" link below and it will take you through the steps to link your post here. It will ask you for the address of your post. You get that by right clicking on the browser window for your post. Just make sure it's for your specific post, not your blog, so people can find the post for this linky. Hope that helps. It's really not hard. And you CANNOT mess anything up by trying. I promise. :)


So, here goes! I'm so excited to hear your testimonies of His Faithfulness in your life! Thank you so very much for sharing here. It is such a blessing!!



Monday, November 7, 2011

Questions We'd Never Before Thought to Ask

"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."


We have had some very interesting hypothetical discussions of late concerning the stewardship of blessings. Never having been in the situation of having a large amount of money over and above "needs," we haven't really wondered about many of the principles involved in stewarding that would come into play for someone who had been blessed with a large sum. What if you were suddenly given a large amount of money?


Some of the questions that come to mind:


When is more just more?


How much is "enough"?


Where is the line between blessing and burden in regard to money?


How do we learn to steward larger blessings?


Even if the budget allows certain responsibilities to be delegated, don't we still have a responsibility to ask permission of Him before we delegate them?


How do we learn the line between freedom for more service and self indulgence?


Given the opportunity to bless others, how do we discern whether a specific gift would actually be a blessing?


At what point is giving actually sacrificial?


Isn't it harder with "more" to keep your trust in the Provider instead of the provision?


When the Lord says it is harder for a rich man to enter the Kingdom than for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, how "rich" is "rich?"


Would a great deal of money change me?


Might it be possible that He might ask you not to receive a large sum offered to you?


What standard of living is consistent with our calling?


The stewardship of blessings/resources is an area that is applicable to each of us, no matter the amount we are entrusted with to use for His Glory. Regardless of our financial positions, the proper attitude toward money or physical blessings requires our comparing it with His attitude toward the use of resources. His example shows that any resources were always to be used to accomplish His Purposes for His Glory. Paying taxes, supplying needs, or the extravagant gift of anointing His Feet consistently display the proper use of resources. 


Continuing to chew on these things . . .


What do you think?




Monday, October 17, 2011

All of Those Faces



I have struggled with finding the words to describe what's in my heart after The Tabernacle Experience.


It still feels too big to look at all at once. I have even felt that it might not be possible to write. But I need to try. I need to write it down so that I can never forget, so that it will not fade. It is so very precious and it needs to be preserved in me. It needs to be a Page in Our Heritage of Faith as a family.


But it will have to birthed in pieces. I think that is the only way.


And I think the first piece needs to be the faces.


As the preparations progressed and the day drew near for opening, it was so easy to focus on the huge "To Do" List that seemed completely overwhelming. As always though, His Provision was Perfect in timing and details. 


We opened for guests, feeling wholly inadequate, but just stepping out in faith. He had called, we had answered, He would work it out through all those willing hands and feet who had volunteered.


And then they began to come.


He began to send those He had chosen to meet Him in that place. We had prayed for them to come. We knew He had chosen ones He wanted to encounter Him in this precious way. We didn't care how many there were, we simply asked that He would send them.


There were many who came out of curiosity. Others who came for a history lesson. 


But then there were those who came, knowing what would happen to them once they entered. 


Total strangers, but when I looked into their eyes, I saw it there: that sense of trepidation mixed with eager anticipation. And I had to hug their necks. 


There are two faces that stand out in my mind's eye as the "representatives" of this group. 


They were probably in their 60's, these two women. I don't know how they knew each other. I don't know where they live. I know nothing about their stories, but when they came to the entrance of the Courtyard, I saw it in their faces. The tears welled up in their eyes, as they did in mine, and we hugged each other. 


They put on their headphones, I started their mp3 player, and pulled back the curtain so they could enter the Courtyard to begin their Journey. 


My heart was so very full. 


All of the hours and days of preparation, just for that moment. 


If they had been the only ones who came for the entire ten days, it would all have been worth it. 


But they weren't. 


There are so many faces swirling around in my mind. Faces streaked with tears as they came out and hugged me and whispered "thank you." 


Total strangers who weren't strangers because of what we had in Common. Strangers who became family because of what happened inside those curtains. And "family" who grew closer because of this shared experience.


There were faces filled with Wonder, surprised by what they had found Inside. 


There were faces filled with Joy because of the intimate encounter with Him. 


There were faces reflecting His Glory, filled with His Peace.


All of those faces . . .



Monday, August 8, 2011

The Gratitude List: August 8, 2011

1705. The presentation of Bibles for the kids, marking their decision
         to "go public" with their faith
1704. The Faithful Cultivation of a young heart by a Loving Father
1703. Silly family times
1702. Loving correction by my husband, so I can be a better wife
1701. Hundreds of people gathered in Houston to pray
1700. Caleb's newest "younger brothers"
1699. Time to collect my thoughts
1698. A box arriving from Vision Forum filled with lots of wonderful
         new resources for school
1697. A fabulous birthday
1696. A community wide prayer meeting
1695. Help for Samuel's nursing issues and Peace for Hannah
1694. Square dancing with the cousins
1693. A wonderful family reunion Kregg and the kids attended
1692. The wisdom of our son-in-law
1691. Strong boys, able to take the yard off Kregg's list
1690. The roots of a servant's heart taking root in Rebekah
1689. Horned toads
1688. Caleb teaching the youth at church
1687. Plans being finalized for an extraordinary Christmas present
1686. Spending time with Hannah and Samuel
1685. A 31 pound watermelon from our neighbor's garden
1684. Staying home for two whole weeks :)


The rest of the growing list is here. Have you started your list yet? :)



Monday, July 25, 2011

A Big Day for Us

Today, the remaining three of our seven children "went public" with their faith in Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior! We are praising our Faithful Father Who WILL see through to completion the good works He begins in us! 







It was a special time for Caleb as Kregg asked him to take Ben's confession of faith and help baptize him. Caleb asked the Lord for brothers for years before they arrived from Siberia. 




Especially poignant for us is the realization that, if not for the Lord, Joshua and Ben would still be in far eastern Siberia, having never heard of Jesus Christ. With Joshua just turning 14 and Ben turning 13 this week, the realization that, at age 16, they would have been turned out of the orphanage onto the streets is sobering indeed. Instead, He brought them to West Texas to be our sons and to hear the Good News of a Loving Savior! Joshua has already begun to ask if the Lord may want them to return to Russia someday as missionaries for the Lord.


And to share in our joy, Kregg's parents drove 2 1/2 hours each way and Jeremiah, Hannah and Samuel drove 2 hours each way to witness their confessions of faith and their immersion, in obedience to the Lord. Mackenzy was the only one who was unable to be there. But she was rejoicing with us.


Kregg asked his father to pray a blessing over all those baptized. In addition to our three, there were two other young girls he was privileged to bless.


We are so very blessed by the Lord and we simply praise Him, in overwhelming gratitude and awe of what He has done for us. 


For Kregg and I each to have been brought up in a heritage of Faith, is a blessing for which we will never be able to express sufficient gratitude--and we are thrilled to continue passing the generational blessing on to our children, knowing they will pass it on to theirs. There are four generations of our family in this picture. My parents would loved to have lived to witness this day.


Even if you don't come from a heritage of faith, your children can. You can begin that generational blessing that will reach into a future you will not witness. There is no greater gift you can give your children than to train them up in the Lord. The generations you don't live to see will be blessed by the choices you make now. If you are reading this and don't know Christ as your Lord and Savior, I would be happy to hear from you, or pray for you, or talk to you. Send me an email. Talk to someone you know who walks with Him. It changes everything!


God is SO GOOD! He is the only One Worthy of our praises!







Friday, July 15, 2011

Psalm 91 in Real Life: Pages in Our Heritage of Faith Link-Up

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This is my very first ever guest post! I'm so excited to introduce you to the testimony of my brother, John. I asked him to share this incredible story of God's Faithfulness with you here. John was in the Army, stationed in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia during Desert Storm, working with the Patriot Missile. It was a scary time for us, waiting and wondering. When he came home, he told us this story:



The day began much as the days before it had, a voice rough from a night of sleep and not yet having had his morning coffee saying, “Get up, get shaved and get ready, formation in 30 minutes.” The tent was dark and it was chilly in the mornings, just south of Riyadh, in January of 1991. Desert Shield had, in a moment, become Desert Storm just a little more than a week prior. The Scud attacks had lessened since that first night.


PATRIOT’s role in this conflict had honored us, but was also a reason for concern. The fact that a weapon the Iraqis deemed important (their SCUD missiles) had been neutralized by the PATRIOT brought home the fact that, if there were covert Iraqi forces in Saudi Arabia, a PATRIOT missile unit would be a prime target.

Please indulge me while I break from the story to clear up a few things. First, PARTIOT is Phased Array Tracking Radar Intercept On Target. The phased array part means that the radar does not rotate, like most people think of a radar, it electronically shifts the beam. The entire body of the radar can turn to adjust to a primary target. When it is turning, there is a small horn just loud enough to let anyone standing near know to be aware.  PATRIOT was designed as an anti-aircraft system, and when we arrived in Saudi Arabia was not capable of shooting at targets coming at a near vertical descent. The control systems received software upgrades after we were in Saudi. Trying to bend a radar beam that much was problematic. It greatly decreased the range and stability of the beam.

The next thing I need to explain is the Scud. It is 40 feet long and the front 5 feet contains the warhead. It is a ballistic missile that, at the peak of its trajectory, is above the atmosphere. Its downward path consists of falling back into the atmosphere at speeds above mach 5. The Scud is not a weapon that allows you to select an important building and target that building.  You can, however, target a city the size of Fort Worth and expect it to land within the city limits. This means that a Scud is not a Tactical weapon but a Terrorist weapon; it is used to invoke fear in large population areas.

Finally, how effective was PATRIOT? PATRIOT was completely successful at its mission. Did we shoot down every Scud? No. Did we destroy most of the incoming warheads? No. We did hit several Scuds, which had never been done in combat. That is the equivalent of shooting a bullet with a smaller bullet. Think about it.

The Scud was a terrorist weapon, not a tactical weapon. If we had been shooting at tactical missiles, you would not have to destroy them all. You have to keep them from reaching their target. For a Scud the target is the ground. PATRIOT was being used as an antiterrorist weapon, to make the people in the cities feel safe, at which it was completely successful. So successful, in fact, that it kept the Israelis out of the conflict.

Now back to the story of that day. Shaved and ready, I headed to formation. Opening the tent flap, the first thing I noticed was that the back door to the radar was open, which is pretty much the same thing as the hood being up on a car.  It is broken. The radar had been down for three days, which was enough time to have called in Raytheon techs to come fix it. In formation, we were informed that some other troops from a different branch of the military were coming that day to help with perimeter security. Having been released from formation, Gildeon and I went to check the reload equipment and stay out of sight till lunch.

In line for lunch, one of the the troops in to help with perimeter security was behind me. I introduced myself, greeted him, and told him that he had never seen anything like a PATRIOT launch at night from only about 150 meters away. Imagine a one ton round accelerating to mach 3 in the time it took it to travel only 17 feet! 

I left the conversation there, got my lunch and continued on with my day. I remember as it got dark heading into the tent and glancing over at the radar, the back door was still open.

Our unit used a lot of electricity, and we had a TV and a Nintendo in the tent. All the visiting troops were to stay in our tent. They had settled in around the Nintendo in the front of the tent while all the PATRIOT soldiers headed to the back of the tent to their cots, to go to sleep. I know that I had fallen asleep, because I awoke with a start. The small horn on the radar was beeping little short beeps; this meant that the radar was adjusting itself to a target azimuth. As I sat up on my cot and put my boots on, all the other PATRIOT people were doing the same thing. The visiting troops were still in the front of the tent playing Mario, but had all noticed as we sat up in unison. They asked “What’s going on?”

We replied, “Scud Alert!”

No sooner had the words left our mouths than the air raid siren began to scream, and over the P.A. we heard, “Scud Alert, Scud Alert.”

We headed for the bunker, passing the "new guys" putting on their boots. One of them asked me, “How did you know?”

 I responded “I could tell you, but then I would have to kill you.”

Exiting the tent, we checked to see that the door was indeed closed. We all rushed to the bunker, not really for cover but to have a good view if we launched. The bunker was built out of two six foot culverts about six feet apart with a couple of Air Force pallets spanning the gap and all of it was covered with dirt. I noticed that the PATRIOT people were all pressing to the front, while the visiting troops were filtering into the culverts.

The first warning in this scenario is, “Scud Alert, Scud Alert!” This means that a high energy burst was detected in Iraq by satellite. The next warning is, “Scud Launch, Scud Launch!” this means that AWACS has picked up the Scud on radar, normally about 2 to 3 minutes after the satellite detection. The next warning is “Inbound! Inbound!” This is given when the AWACS determines that your location is the one to engage the Scud. Our missiles launch within seconds of this warning. Finally, “Incoming, Incoming!” This is from our own radar operators. The Scud is on our radar, and before this announcement is finished PATRIOT missiles have exploded out of their transport/launch canisters. The site turns to daylight and a double sonic boom smashes into you, from each missile launched.

I was standing at the front leaning on the culvert to the right of the bunker, as you looked out of it. As the warnings progressed, I noticed the PATRIOT people pressing forward and the new guys moving further into the culverts. They didn't understand what we already knew about the PATRIOT defense system. The “Inbound!” and “Incoming!” warnings were one behind the other. The “Incoming” warning was repeated as a shout by the visiting troops as they hit the deck.

As the PATRIOT missiles streaked down range, the light began to fade and the rumble of the missiles died away, the sound of cheering echoed through the bunker as I watched high-fives and smiles break across faces.

I looked down and at my feet was the soldier who had spoken to me at lunch earlier in the day. As I reached down and offered him a hand up, I said, “You still have never seen anything like a PATRIOT launch.”

He responded, “You guys are crazy!”

Gildeon and I, as well as most of launcher platoon headed down range to replace the missiles that had been fired and returned to our cots, not without first noticing that the back door to the radar was again open.

The next morning, while we were in formation we learned that what we had only perceived as an incredible light show was, in fact, nothing short of a miracle. The PATRIOT system requires about seven minutes to power up. The techs working on repairing them had just shut the door to the radar when the Scud Alert was given. It only takes a Scud about seven minutes to go from Iraq to Riyadh. The radar screens that the operator use had not even powered up when the missiles went “down range.”

The operator ordered a printout from the computer.

It revealed that the Scud had been traveling at mach 5.4 and that there had been less than 10 seconds left to engage the Scud before impact, into an area heavily populated with U.S. soldiers and some of the top brass. The radar stayed functional just long enough to guide the PATRIOT missile to its target and then went down for another two days! During those previous 5 days, the radar was up for less than 9 minutes!

There is no way of knowing how many lives were saved that day.

My God is the God of EVERYTHING!


Psalm 91

  Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
   will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
   my God, in whom I trust.”  Surely he will save you
   from the fowler’s snare
   and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers,
   and under his wings you will find refuge;
   his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
   nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
   nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
   ten thousand at your right hand,
   but it will not come near you.
You will only observe with your eyes
   and see the punishment of the wicked.
  If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,”
   and you make the Most High your dwelling,
no harm will overtake you,
   no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning you
   to guard you in all your ways;
they will lift you up in their hands,
   so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
   you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
  “Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
   I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
   I will be with him in trouble,
   I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
   and show him my salvation.”



Now it's your turn! Tell us how the Lord has shown His Faithfulness to you. It may not be as dramatic as this story from the life of my brother. But even the smallest details in our lives reveal to us His Faithfulness. I am compelled to praise Him constantly for the ways He shows me a wrong motive of my heart, or how to respond exactly to a situation with words that glorify Him. 

Every moment of our lives, His Faithfulness is on view, if we are paying attention. Sometimes, it means even more when we see it in the "small things" of life because we know then that He does indeed have the hairs on our heads numbered and he notices when a single sparrow falls. 

Write down your stories! Testify to the world what He has done for you. And share them with us. Imagine, years from now, if you are faithful in this discipline to "write it down," what an incredible treasure you will have compiled! What a wonderful tool it will be to strengthen the faith of the future generations of your family!





Friday, July 8, 2011

Forgiveness is the Key: Pages in Your Heritage of Faith-A Link Up


Even before the adoption, but definitely since then we have wondered if there will be "issues" that arise with Joshua and Benjamin concerning their biological parents. They seem to have no feelings about them. None. It just looks to us like they walked away from Russia and never looked back. Have they just adjusted that well, or are they not even aware of their own feelings? We occasionally ask them about memories and feelings, but they truly seem fine. Even though Josh is now 13 and Ben 12, it is more like they are about 8 and 9. So, is it just that we haven't hit the time for these issues to arise, or has the Lord already redeemed most of it? Or is this the lull before the storm? 

We have struggled from the beginning, 6 years ago, with Josh's desire to have the approval of man. He has sought accolades, attention, and admiration from any group he was with. We have prayed and talked to him and imposed consequences for wrong choices. His desire to please has been so intense that he has chosen to do things he knew were wrong and even dangerous because he so desperately wanted to be liked. We have had to severely limit his exposure to peer groups because, in those situations, he would not make wise choices. He is extremely athletic and would be great at many sports, but his huge desire to be in the spot light has caused us to believe that would only make things worse. We have prayed and prayed.

His heart is changing, though, because the Lord is Faithful! 

This morning, the Lord laid two things on my heart. First, He told me that the reason this issue is so deep-seated in Joshua's spirit is because he was thrown away by his birth parents. 

They were warned that if they didn't quit getting drunk all the time, the boys would be taken away. Nothing changed. The authorities arrived and took the boys away. Their parents never came to see them, never even answered the letters sent to them by the officials, never did anything to improve their ability to take care of them. 

It is like they were glad to be rid of them. I don't know that for certain, but I just don't know how else to interpret it. 

Josh doesn't even realize what that did to him. He doesn't understand the gaping hole their treatment of him left in his spirit. As the first born, the effects on him are much more pronounced than on Ben.  


Second, I believe the Lord would have Josh and Ben begin to pray for their biological parents on a daily basis. I believe the Lord will use this to heal the broken places in their spirits. The boys don't understand that they need to forgive them. But just making the choice to forgive is not enough. He is calling them to invest in the lives of their parents.


Bill Gothard told a story in his Institute in Basic Life Principles seminar years ago that has always stuck with me. I know I don't remember all the specifics exactly, but the principles are indelibly stamped in my brain.


He said there were two brothers living in an area of the world where the main crop was rice. These brothers had their field on a terraced slope on the side of a mountain. The terrain was such that the rice farmers had to cut these terraces and then build earthen dams around the perimeter of their fields to hold water. These fields are then irrigated by hand: the daily task of carrying buckets of water from the river up to cover their field. 

These two brothers became Christians. While they were still new in their faith, they arrived at their rice field one morning to quite a shock. The neighbor whose field was just below theirs on the hillside had cut a hole in their earthen dam and drained all of their water onto his field. As Christians, they knew they were supposed to forgive him. So they made the conscious choice to forgive. They repaired the damage and painstakingly irrigated their field. It was a large job.

The next day, the same scene greeted them. The neighbor had, once again, drained all their water onto his field. Determined to honor the Lord, they forgave again and began the arduous task of repairing and re-irrigating their field. They had truly forgiven this man, but they knew they were also supposed to love him. They really didn't feel love for him and it troubled them.

Day Three. Same thing. By this time, they were truly distraught. They knew they had been obedient by choosing to forgive, but they also knew there was more. Something was missing.


They went to visit a very wise man in the village. After explaining their predicament, his answer surprised them. He told them to start their work the next morning by first irrigating their neighbor's field, then their own.


Somewhat incredulous, they decided it was worth a try.


The next morning, they faithfully started their day by beginning to irrigate the field of their "enemy." A surprising thing happened. The longer they worked, the lighter their hearts. In fact, without even trying to manipulate their feelings, love for this man began to grow.


They decided to try it again, so the following morning they set out to irrigate their neighbor's field and then their own. They found their hearts so full that they were singing. Love for this man continued to grow in them.


Day Three was filled with even more joy and love as they labored to bless this man who had wronged them.  And, most surprising of all??


Their neighbor came up to them as they were working to irrigate his field that day. He was weeping as he asked them, "You are Christians, aren't you?" 

Beyond their wildest imagination, they were allowed, in Love, to share the Gospel with him.


Moral of the story: When we voluntarily invest something of value in the life of the one who has wronged us, we will not only be able to forgive but also to truly love that person. And that sets us completely free!!!



We have not wanted to "stir anything up", but the Lord's Wisdom is always to clean out and remove anything that could "fester" in us. He doesn't want the boys to just be okay, He wants them to be victorious! His Ways are higher than my ways. Praise Him!!

So today, I explained to the boys how their spirits had been wounded and what the Lord wanted us to do about it. They were ready. They were receptive. There were tears and Josh said, "I was really attached to my parents." We talked about the consequences of their parents' wrong choices. And that God wanted so much for them to understand how much they were loved that He told us to travel three-quarters of the way around the world and bring them to Texas to become part of the Conder Clan. Miraculous! 

I explained to them how satan wanted them to believe the lie that they were worthless, thrown away. And that they need to do battle in their spirits to counter his lies with the Truth. The truth that they are loved beyond measure by Him and by us. And that they are so special, the Lord went to extraordinary measures to help them know that.

What a Mighty God we serve! What wonderful things does He have for them to do? How will He use them to further the Kingdom?


How fun to anticipate the fruition of His Plan for them.


The pictures are of Josh on the left and Ben on the right shortly after they arrived from Magadan, Russia.




(A reprint while we continue our nomadic life this summer)


What about you? Tell us a story about His Faithfulness in your life. It can be old or new. It can be about you or your kids or your parents or grandparents. Anything that is part of your Heritage of Faith works! There are so many moments in our days where He shows Himself Faithful on our behalf. It doesn't have to be some huge, earth shattering thing. I have so many stories of "small" examples where He spoke just to me, or helped me in a way no one else was aware of, but it ALL displays His work in our lives. I would love to hear of His Hand in your life.