Waiting

This is me right now!

All through our celebration of Advent, our focus was on waiting. Anticipating.

As we have moved into the New Year, our family is still waiting. But this is a different kind of waiting. I got really sick on Christmas Eve and I am still waiting to be well. This is very unusual for our family because I am rarely sick (for which I am grateful). I have an appointment at the doctor tomorrow because the fever just won't go away. Weird. 

The dryer Kregg ordered still hasn't come in. Supposedly, it will be in tonight so maybe we will get it tomorrow. The dirty clothes pile is waiting. And growing. It's getting scary!

We were planning to start school today, but I just was not up to it. Our semester start date is up in the air for now. Very unusual for us.

I am waiting on an appliance repairman because the washing machine which was clacking is still clacking. He came last week and found a dime under the drum. He tested it and it seemed to be fine. Very next load? Clacking. Maybe it's another dime?

Last night, while I was sequestered in our bedroom with another fever of 101 Kregg came through in a hurry because there was water running out from under my kitchen sink. The disposal had a two inch crack and chose that moment to begin gushing. Poor husband. Still waiting for his to-do list to shorten instead of multiply.

I had already put in a call to the repairman to make sure I was on the list for today. It's a good thing. Now my dishwasher won't drain. So I can get a two-for-one service call. yipee.


Normally, every vestige of Christmas decoration would have vanished from sight by now. But we are waiting to finish the packing up and the moving out because my poor husband can only do so much. And since mama "ain't up to snuff", it'll just have to wait.


What I am not waiting on is the Lord's Sufficiency for what concerns me today. He has already made a way. As long as I don't define success for the day by claiming control over things I really can't control, we're good. I can't make all these things fix themselves. I can't even make someone else fix them. Today I can't do all the things that I would normally do. But I can choose to be okay with that. I can choose to believe that everything will work out. I can still focus on my two words for 2011: Being and Blessing. 


And I can keep quoting this verse from Isaiah 40 when my fevered brain starts to freak out over the laundry:

²⁸ Have you not known?
      Have you not heard?
      The everlasting God, the LORD,
      The Creator of the ends of the earth,
      Neither faints nor is weary.
      His understanding is unsearchable.
       ²⁹ He gives power to the weak, (boy that's me)
      And to those who have no might He increases strength. (me, again)
       ³⁰ Even the youths shall faint and be weary, (not just us "old folks", I am 48 after all)
      And the young men shall utterly fall,
       ³¹ But those who wait on the LORD
      Shall renew their strength;
      They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
      They shall run and not be weary,
      They shall walk and not faint.

So, Lord, I am waiting. And You are Enough! And that is a really good thing because I think I need to go back to bed now.